What To Do When “That Day” Happens?

June 22, 2020.Reading time 60 minutes.

Many people have asked me what to do, who to contact and how it’s expected for you to be when your person dies, so I thought I’d share what I’ve learned during the last 6 months. What to do? Be hysterical. Be calm. Be whatever you need to be. There are no rules when your […]

Acceptance

May 27, 2020.Reading time 3 minutes.

Holiday 2 of 4 cancelled. Part of me is pleased because COVID the Cunt is still amongst us. When I add to the fact I’m nowhere near ready to leave the house and mingle with people, it makes for a good outcome. The other half of me is conflicted; I should leave the house, I […]

142 Days

May 4, 2020.Reading time 6 minutes.

How do people who have suffered trauma cope with lockdown, with every day a Groundhog Day of pain? I can only speak for myself, but I’ve been on my own lockdown for the last 142 days. Yes, I’m counting. Each day presents new or repetitive challenges but the basis is the same. Dealing with the […]

A Little Goes A Long Way

January 23, 2020.Reading time 8 minutes.

I’ve always bounced back. From every knock I’ve ever experienced, I’ve found a way to reflect, rebuild and go again. My Psych on Wednesday was pretty hard. He pushed me to recall really difficult stuff, he challenged my thinking, my self-esteem, my perception. Considering it was the second day after we said “in a bit” […]

Grief. You’re a Prick!

January 12, 2020.Reading time 8 minutes.

On 13th December 2019 my husband, Mark, passed away. The reason he passed was unexpected, the Coroner came back with `undetermined’. That shit is hard to reconcile with. Mark was 52. Christmas and New Year passed in a blur, as have the days and weeks since. How can I possibly explain how I feel right […]

Do Epic Shit. Just Because You Can.

December 3, 2017.Reading time 3 minutes.

I want to attempt a running marathon, I really do, but sense got through to me this morning, just in time to stop me signing up for the Berlin Mara next September. My knees are shot, I know that and, with a possible exception for the GNR, my long distance running efforts are over. So […]

Bucket List

August 8, 2017.Reading time 5 minutes.

In May, I updated you all with my failed running efforts. I completed 50% of my charity challenge but having to admit defeat, to not fulfil my promise, is something that has preyed on my mind ever since. The ace news? A very kind, anonymous soul, donated over £600 to help me achieve my £5000 […]

I may be down, but I am not out.

May 6, 2017.Reading time 4 minutes.

In 14 hours I will line up with thousands of others to start the Rotary Stratford Marathon (and half marathon). I am attempting the half. I am not even remotely prepared; I have not ran since the Coventry Half Marathon on 19th March. Since then, I have been troubled with a gammy knee and wonky […]

Back to Skool

April 12, 2017.Reading time 10 minutes.

But this time I want, and I’m willing, to learn. It is fair to say I didn’t do well at school. I didn’t enjoy the formal learning environment or the chosen teaching style. I didn’t enjoy being in a fixed place, looking in the same direction, at the back of the same kids head, half-listening […]

Label me? I label myself.

February 28, 2017.Reading time 3 minutes.

Inspired by the very brilliant blog by Ruth Penfold on the train home tonight, I want to share with you my thoughts on labels. Not the kind in the back of your pants but the kind that are attached to people. Ruth said, in her blog entitled: THAT TIME WHEN I REALISED THAT I WEAR MY […]