Forgive me bloggers, for I have sinned. It has been almost 2 years since my last blog.
During the last week, I have reflected more than I ever have done. Last Sunday, my neighbour, aged 45, suddenly passed away at home. We still don’t know why.
Still in shock, I dropped hubby off to the airport for his usual business trip to Germany and I returned home to consider what the future should hold.
I read my first blog again and reflected on a most fabulous career. I have thoroughly loved every single second. But at what cost? What have I missed during the last 15 years when I have been so focussed on developing myself and progressing my career? Family and Friends’, Celebrations of birth, marriage, promotion, get-togethers for no reason at all; just because we should, a pint up the pub on a Friday, a game of darts with the boys on a Sunday, children. The list could go on.
Hubby and I facetimed when he arrived in Germany. We decided that it is time to live in the now. Not just today, but in this very second.
How important is it, really, to achieve your professional aspirations if you don’t have those closest to you to share it with?
Is it worth giving up on your goals completely? No, I don’t believe so. It’s about finding a balance. A balance that is right for you, right for your family and right for the company you work for.
It got me thinking. I’d finally achieved the holy grail of the job title that I had been working towards for the last 15 years when, in a flash, I started to question what is truly important. I know the answer to this one. I had just taken it for granted for too long. How I change to embrace this will be an interesting path of self-learning and awareness.
At the end of my interim in December, I have options. Do I continue with my chosen career path or do I do something completely different?
This question, I don’t yet know the answer to.
I have the rest of today to make the most of yet; all 111,870 seconds remaining of it.